Post by Radin on Dec 18, 2010 0:24:19 GMT -5
Some things that I have written lately and not so lately haven't really been in the form of stories, but more like speeches or prose that focus on a point and I wanted to share them here. I'll post more as I write them.
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((This was written by me from the night I got back from watching Scott Pilgrim.))
An epiphany from watching Scott Pilgrim
I’m trying to think of where to begin. Well, I guess I view myself sorta as a giver or a protector of sorts. On a nerdy level, a paladin if you will. I can just reflexively do things for others sake without thinking about it and stick my neck out much farther than the average person will. I get satisfaction out of helping other people, but I guess another reason I do things like these is because of my impulse to try and fix things. Usually when there’s a problem I like to fix it and sometimes it bothers me when I can’t, even if there is no way I could.
I guess it’s because of this reason that my own value of myself has gone down and I’m sometimes too focused on other people. Helping them is great, trying to do so at the expense of yourself? Not so much. The way people are nowadays too, they like to take advantage and use people like me. I’ve shrugged it off for the longest time, but I’m fed up with it now. I’ve realized that doing something out of self respect, rather than for someone else; can be more satisfy than anything. You’ve got to fight for yourself, not in a selfish ‘only the strongest survive’ manner, but in a way that doesn’t always put others before you.
I don’t know why seeing a movie got me thinking about all of this, but I felt as if I could relate a lot to it. I want to be able to help people, and I certainly don’t want to hurt them, I’d like to think I’ve done more harm than good. But I guess there are things you can do, and things you can’t. What I cannot better, I don’t need to worry about, because something or someone else will sort it out. For example, the past. It’s happened; I can’t do anything about it except put it behind me as much as possible and not let it haunt my future. The great thing about the past IS that it’s already passed. All it’s really useful for is reflecting on lessons you’ve learned, where you put your car keys, and telling stories.
In a romantic sense from the movie, well; I probably would say I haven’t gone through that ‘jerk’ phase yet and hope that doesn’t mean it will come soon or at all. But even though I haven’t been, and mostly I’m the one that gets trampled over in the end, I know that it’s for the most part unintentional (...mostly *glares*). No one wants to make someone suffer, but at the same time no one wants to suffer as well, so they do what they have to do. With all that being said, it happens for a reason. It’s a raging river you have to cross, and there are rocks to jump from along the way. There’s going to be those rocks that cut you when you land on them, the ones that are slick and cause you to slip, or those that are misleading and sink under your step. With some luck, you’ll actually find a solid rock to land on, rest up, dry yourself off, and keep moving to the end.
What you go through makes you who you are. Every time you meet someone else, you may become just slightly more different from your experiences with them, and that molds you more into who you are for the next time. It’s a gradual process of becoming who you are and finding yourself, because to be honest; no one starting out really knows. The only way to know who you are in life, is to experience what life to has to offer and not all of those are going to pleasant and not all will be terrible. The shitty times are supposed to happen. People are going to do unjust things to you, it’s inevitable, holding onto those experiences longer than needed does more harm than good. Not everyone who wrongs you will feel sorry, and even if they do they won’t always say so; don’t hold your breath for it.
You don’t need someone to complete your life; you can use them to help you out in it. You are your own person, with or without someone. Trying to put someone on a pedestal that’s taller than you causes you to knock it down. My life is young. People are going to come and go, because in youth you learn things. You never stop, but here is where it starts and not where it ends. You might need to go through one, two, three devastations – you might have to go through none at all – and you might have to through seven evil exes. Whatever it might be, it just makes the end worth it.
Thus ends my ramblings of my thoughts from seeing a movie.
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((This was written by me from the night I got back from watching Scott Pilgrim.))
An epiphany from watching Scott Pilgrim
I’m trying to think of where to begin. Well, I guess I view myself sorta as a giver or a protector of sorts. On a nerdy level, a paladin if you will. I can just reflexively do things for others sake without thinking about it and stick my neck out much farther than the average person will. I get satisfaction out of helping other people, but I guess another reason I do things like these is because of my impulse to try and fix things. Usually when there’s a problem I like to fix it and sometimes it bothers me when I can’t, even if there is no way I could.
I guess it’s because of this reason that my own value of myself has gone down and I’m sometimes too focused on other people. Helping them is great, trying to do so at the expense of yourself? Not so much. The way people are nowadays too, they like to take advantage and use people like me. I’ve shrugged it off for the longest time, but I’m fed up with it now. I’ve realized that doing something out of self respect, rather than for someone else; can be more satisfy than anything. You’ve got to fight for yourself, not in a selfish ‘only the strongest survive’ manner, but in a way that doesn’t always put others before you.
I don’t know why seeing a movie got me thinking about all of this, but I felt as if I could relate a lot to it. I want to be able to help people, and I certainly don’t want to hurt them, I’d like to think I’ve done more harm than good. But I guess there are things you can do, and things you can’t. What I cannot better, I don’t need to worry about, because something or someone else will sort it out. For example, the past. It’s happened; I can’t do anything about it except put it behind me as much as possible and not let it haunt my future. The great thing about the past IS that it’s already passed. All it’s really useful for is reflecting on lessons you’ve learned, where you put your car keys, and telling stories.
In a romantic sense from the movie, well; I probably would say I haven’t gone through that ‘jerk’ phase yet and hope that doesn’t mean it will come soon or at all. But even though I haven’t been, and mostly I’m the one that gets trampled over in the end, I know that it’s for the most part unintentional (...mostly *glares*). No one wants to make someone suffer, but at the same time no one wants to suffer as well, so they do what they have to do. With all that being said, it happens for a reason. It’s a raging river you have to cross, and there are rocks to jump from along the way. There’s going to be those rocks that cut you when you land on them, the ones that are slick and cause you to slip, or those that are misleading and sink under your step. With some luck, you’ll actually find a solid rock to land on, rest up, dry yourself off, and keep moving to the end.
What you go through makes you who you are. Every time you meet someone else, you may become just slightly more different from your experiences with them, and that molds you more into who you are for the next time. It’s a gradual process of becoming who you are and finding yourself, because to be honest; no one starting out really knows. The only way to know who you are in life, is to experience what life to has to offer and not all of those are going to pleasant and not all will be terrible. The shitty times are supposed to happen. People are going to do unjust things to you, it’s inevitable, holding onto those experiences longer than needed does more harm than good. Not everyone who wrongs you will feel sorry, and even if they do they won’t always say so; don’t hold your breath for it.
You don’t need someone to complete your life; you can use them to help you out in it. You are your own person, with or without someone. Trying to put someone on a pedestal that’s taller than you causes you to knock it down. My life is young. People are going to come and go, because in youth you learn things. You never stop, but here is where it starts and not where it ends. You might need to go through one, two, three devastations – you might have to go through none at all – and you might have to through seven evil exes. Whatever it might be, it just makes the end worth it.
Thus ends my ramblings of my thoughts from seeing a movie.
